This morning while I was wasting away trying to sleep I thought about why exactly I didn't have anything to say or write about blood meridian. I think I came to the conclusion that despite my knowledge and acknowledgment of the human capacity for violence and depravity I see it as hurdle that has to be prevailed over. Things like wanton violence and tribalism are by products of when humanity were no better than other social apes. I have no logic or reason as to why we will triumph over these aspects of our nature. I guess we call that faith. Optimism in humanity as a whole. What would be the alternative? What exactly is the point of my continued existence, my sentience, if we are simply doing Darwinism with extra steps? I think to attempt to find fulfillment you have to first reject this nihilism.
Idealism is what makes us human maybe?
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